I'm not even going to say "I'm sorry I've been so busy; I promise to update this more often" because I know when I do, I either forget about it completely or I blow it off. I'm such a bad blogger. I'm really a habit person. Once I get into a habit of something, I'll do it every day, but if I don't do it every day, I forget about it very very quickly.
Unfortunately, my partner Felicia likes to keep me very busy so leisure like writing or blogging or video-gaming tend to get put on the back-burner forever. Sometimes I don't know what it is, but she always seems to come up with some project or errand that I have to be involved it. It's not that I don't like spending time with her, but some of her projects are just silly. Half of them involve going to WalMart and shopping for an hour or more. I think moving out of our recent apartment has helped her understand just how much we have and just how much we don't need. I'm not kidding when I say we threw away about six or seven large trashbags full of just stuff that had been lying around the apartment taking up space and wasting our money. Felicia is such a packrat...
But then again, I'm such a homebody so trade one quality for another, I guess. One girl likes to acquire stuff, and one girl just likes to sit secluded at home. What a pair, what a pair.
I think that if she insists on being out of the house, we can do things inexpensive and fun and relaxing together- like go to the park to walk the dogs, go fishing, feed the ducks, play some tennis. I've also encouraged her to keep her mind busy with writing, like I have, and we may soon have another exciting link on the right hand side of the page here :)
This is not the only confession I have today. I have something else that I've realized and I'm ready to come out of the closet about. Those who know me personally are going to laugh their asses off... just don't be too harsh with me.
.... I .... like Bleach.
The anime and the manga and everything that goes with it. It's just.... so COOL! I mean, the powers, the characters, the supernatural feel, the swordfights, the mythology. It's everything I've ever wanted in an anime. AND I have 300+ episodes to fan-girl and be obsessed with it, not to mention a shitload of other things including movies, games, and more.
I'm absolutely dying for the new Bleach PS3 game. I want to play it so bad!
Those who aren't as well acquainted with me are likely raising an eyebrow saying "What's the big deal? you like a popular Japanese cartoon. So what?"
Well, let me take you back to about 2004 when I was a high-school 'hipster' ...
Pictured above: Me in high-school... too 'cool' for anything the kids were into
Despite being part of several organizations including band, anime club, band, poetry club, band, theatre club, band, and cinema club, I was that obnoxious one that only talked to you about the obscure series/plays/symphonies/cantos/etc. because I made it a personal hobby of mine to spend all of my energies to not being like everybody else. I suppose in my head at the time I thought that liking things that were unheard of and outside-the-box would make me ....
a ) fascinating
b ) mysterious
c ) intelligent
d ) popular
e ) all of the above.
If you answered 'E' , you are exactly correct. How delusional was I.
In truth, this act made me all the more opposite... weird, stand-offish, obnoxious, snobby, and so uncool. I was firm about it. No Bleach, no Naruto, no Inuyasha, no Fullmetal Alchemist - none of those animes were in my vocabulary. And as one of the leading members in the anime club, we didn't watch 'popular' anime - instead resorting to some well-known Miyazaki movies and some of my own weird collection. I think I was resented a little about it all, and I'm pretty sure if I met the high-school SK, I'd falcon-punch her into the ground fast than you could say "Arigato!" ....
It would look something like this.
This was all a facade for my classmates. At home, I researched the series and fell in love with a lot of the mythologies. So much that without even picking up any manga volume or watching an episode - I know a fair amount about all of it, and I even have a few fan-characters.
It's only been until recently that I've decided to finally beat the hipster out of me, and finally try to get in on what all the kids were (and still are) crazy about. Granted, a lot of those anime and manga have chaged now due to the fact that all the stuff that was cool while I was in high-school is officially leaning on ten years old now, but they still have a ton of fans world-wide.
What inspired the change was the fact that the library I work at is sponsoring a city-wide anime club. I really wanted to be a big part in it, but I didn't want to be that weird obnoxious kid anymore. I accept the fact that people are drawn and like people who resemble them some way - whether it be in physical appearance, or in hobbies, or likes and dislikes. I thought that in high-school, with the band program, that I was accepted and drawn by my peers who were also in band; it made me feel good to feel like I was a part of something... but I didn't want to be the one who's face just blurred in with the rest of the crowd. I don't understand why I wanted that. After I officially came out as a lesbian to my peers, I would have given anything to just be blurred into the crowd, unnoticed. I was publicly rejected and bullied. As fate would have, I have sadly learned throughout the years that I wasn't as accepted and liked as I thought I had been. A lot was said behind my back. I wish I had never been the bitch I was in high-school.
I was sad about it for a long time, but I've come to a point in my life where if I don't let go of the past, I'll be sad forever, and I don't want to be remembered that way. So, I decided to be more accepting of myself, and decided that I don't care what other people think of what I like or what they think of me. As long as I don't hurt people and always try to do the right thing, nothing will go wrong.
I really like the popular animes. I understand why they're so popular, and I'm hitting my head against the wall saying "stupid, stupid, stupid, why didn't you grow up sooner?" - I guess it just takes some people longer than others.
Oh, hey! Here's the anime update...
Hetalia Axis Powers - finished watching season 1
BLEACH - waiting to watch episode 31, finished with manga 27
Naruto - waiting to watch episode 22
Fullmetal Alchemist - finished with episode 11, looking for manga 8
Sgt Frog - waiting to watch episode 4
Ouran High School Host Club- eying suspicious and waiting to start episode 1
I think juggling six for now is pretty good, right? I know I'll likely not be done with Naruto and Bleach for a long time, so I guess I'll switch around the other five once I get done with them.
I'm really salivating at the mouth to get to the episode when Ichigo and Kenpachi face off in the Bleach anime.
Kenpachi Zaraki, I think, is just a really cool character- in a total badass and scary kind of way.
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